Tuesday 27 October 2009
Taking A Break
Guys, I won't be updating my blog for some time. I don't know how long honestly. I will probably be back but for now, I can't say when. I hope everyone will be fine and doing well while I'm gone. Take care.
Wednesday 21 October 2009
The Truth Hurts
How do I go about describing a day where I'm so nervous that I end up sleeping for only 3 hours? For me, that is some kind of record. I usually go to bed around 7 and wake up way after lunch time. Today, I woke up at 10.
I looked myself in the mirror... the wrinkles suddenly become so obvious... the hair suddenly looks thinner and my face is simply a mess. I look away in disgust. If there's one thing I can't stop, it's time. So, I let go and resign myself to the seconds ticking away into minutes, hours and days. I'm not afraid of being old, just afraid of losing my youth.
I gather up my courage and my heart to go meet her - Destiny. She is shinning, shimmering in the bright sunlight like an angel... and she waits for me there. I walk into the sunlight and bathe myself in her afterglow as she walks ahead of me... every step a leap away from me, every movement a vanishing of her presence. The truth hurts - I can never be entwined with Destiny. Our worlds are too far apart and I'm just wrong for her. So , I wave goodbye and head for home, tired and waiting for Death to come for me.
I looked myself in the mirror... the wrinkles suddenly become so obvious... the hair suddenly looks thinner and my face is simply a mess. I look away in disgust. If there's one thing I can't stop, it's time. So, I let go and resign myself to the seconds ticking away into minutes, hours and days. I'm not afraid of being old, just afraid of losing my youth.
I gather up my courage and my heart to go meet her - Destiny. She is shinning, shimmering in the bright sunlight like an angel... and she waits for me there. I walk into the sunlight and bathe myself in her afterglow as she walks ahead of me... every step a leap away from me, every movement a vanishing of her presence. The truth hurts - I can never be entwined with Destiny. Our worlds are too far apart and I'm just wrong for her. So , I wave goodbye and head for home, tired and waiting for Death to come for me.
In class, a missing face is haunting me. Where has that smile gone I wonder?
The voice over the phone reveals where the smile has turned into a frown, into an embarrased expression of sadness and perhaps regret?
Inside, my heart breaks into cracks as large as my soul. And with every crack, I patch it up and make it whole again. I make it strong once more to face another day.
The truth hurts - My classes don't focus enough on a student's examination needs. They are a waste of time. So, I wave goodbye and head for home, tired and waiting for death to come for me...
... but I lie awake still... no, I'm not ready to die yet...
"Praise is good, it strengthens the heart; criticism is even better; it strengthens the whole."
- Caleb Ho.
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